Disappear ?! Disappeared ?!

10 days
i ask myself everyday
did u reali disappeared in my mind ?
or u juz going to disappear ?
wat i get ?! 
u're stil stay in my heart 
both of u
are stil in my heart 
in my real life
both of u leave me callously
both of u  juz leave me alone to face all the hurt !
both of u let me knew wat is low tide ?!
my life is reali go to the end when i facing my life without u 2 !
the 1st i get hurt from him 
u is the 2nd 1 make me fall in true love
but u also is the 2nd make me face DEEP hurt again 


3 years.....i being in love above 35 times
only twice i being in true love !
but ! both of u make me hate true love !
in my love way 
i get twice DEEP hurt
at the 1st time , i can stand up again 
bcoz of u 
but the 2nd U hurt me 
who gonna support me stand up again ?!!!

u make me hate u ! coz everything u did 

is different wit wat u said 

if u reali can follow wat u said and do it 

i wil accept 

but ur mouth and wat u did is DIFFERENT !

why dun u juz tel me u have fall in love to the others ?!

NOW !   i juz tell myself
i wanna let U dissapeared in my mind !
only our memory is allow to stay in my mind !
the rest abt U ! juz go away ! Fuck OFF ! 
not going to DISAPPEAR...
is DISAPPEARED !!
no more abt u in my life !!!!

I love my new life

especially those my frenzz who support me  

and my new friend ♥  

juz continue our FRIENDSHIP

 until the end of our life